I’ve been doing a lot of reading and thinking lately. There’s certainly much (too much) going on in the world and on a smaller scale, within my circle. My struggle, my goal, is to take control back, empower myself, and become a better reflection of the light.
Authenticity and Truth go hand in hand. If I had to guess, I’d say Authenticity is a daughter of Truth. One facet of it, at any rate. I want, I NEED – to live a more authentic life. To be a reflection not only of the good things and people that surround me (I’m discovering more of them every day) but also to be a reflection of what’s inside of me. And since I’m trying to be more authentic I’ll say that it might not always be pretty, or positive. And that’s OK. That’s real.
Truth is what it is. Sometimes it involves fear. If there is a giant funnel web spider under my bed I don’t do myself or anyone else any good until I admit that Shelob is, in fact, under my bed – makin “friends” with the dust bunnies. If I allow my fear to paralyze me I cannot admit there is a spider. Once I acknowledge the spider, then I can take steps to deal with it. If I don’t, then I’m going to be living with that stupid nasty spider under my bed for eternity. And those of you who know me know that I really, really, REALLY don’t want to have Shelob taking up residence in my house – never mind in my bedroom!
When we acknowledge truth – whether that be our fears or our anger; our achievements or our missteps; whatever – we are then freed to respond. When we respond, we are in control – and that brings balance back to us. I can take karate, become the Fist of Goodness and run across rooftops! (I’m just not into that whole crashing the dinner party thing though…. obscure TV commercial reference: finished., thank you.) Truth is uniquely personalized. My truths are not yours – although they may be similar. I have an obligation to present my truths respectfully, to present myself respectfully and with consideration towards others. Being genuine does not mean I have a license to be hurtful. I also recognize that I can help no one if I am not refreshing my spirit when it needs to be. That’s a hard thing for a parent, a wife, a sibling, a friend, a daughter. But I will make time for me, because if I don’t I won’t have anything to give myself or anyone else. Multiple roles create multiple stressors, demands – and opportunities. I have unique opportunities all the time. I get to decide how I respond to all of them. Pretty cool, if you ask me.
I’m pretty proud of myself today. I had a situation that I could have let completely ruin my day at work and much of my evening. I made some mistakes. (Alert the Media! cuz that
NEVER happens, right? HA!) Now they weren’t earth shattering ones – and others played their parts. But it was my responsibility to catch that stuff. And I didn’t. So, I had to have the dreaded talk with the boss. Guess what? I owned the responsibility and freely acknowledged that. Which allowed my boss and I to have a very constructive dialogue; and for me to come up with a plan of corrective action that not only makes sense but will benefit us immensely in the future. By CHOOSING not to point fingers at others, CHOOSING not to get upset, CHOOSING to think creatively – and in fact asking some others for ideas when I got stuck – I became the Fist of Goodness and ran across that rooftop!! GO ME!!! It’s all about the attitude, baby!
In other news on the more personal front: I’ve decided I can assist my loved one(s) best at the moment by providing some humor. I have made it my mission to find and pass along funny memes and jokes every day to a precious someone who truly needs the healing power of laughter right now. I want to hear and make a Joyful Noise – and Laughter is the most joyful of all – along with song. So please, feel free to send along stuff. Just in case I’m not as connected to the internet “vibe’ as I seem to think I am… 😉
I continue my journey towards being a better reflection of who I want to be, living a more authentic life and loving the minutes – and the people – in it. I’ve really met the nicest people on my road to ruin. Seriously. So to that end, “Let me explain. No, there is too much. Let me sum up.” (name that movie!)
Acknowledge What Is – be it fear, anger, failure or triumph. But do it in a respectful context.
Take a Deep Breath – before you respond. You’ve given yourself the gift of time, to think.
Think– Actions have a ripple effect. Tread carefully. That stone, the one you chucked into the pond. That displaced water splashes back….
Be Kind – It costs nothing and hurts no one.
Pay it Forward -. That also costs you nothing, and creates positivity in the universe.
Be Good to Yourself – In our everyday busy-ness we (women in particular) can easily lose sight of the fact that we can’t take care of others when we’re sick or needy ourselves. Its OK to give ourselves permission to be selfish – and then (GASP!) actually do something for us alone. The feminist movement of the 70’s helped us roar. But its alright to admit we have laryngitis sometimes.
Cowboy Up – it’s OK to be fallible. We’re human after all. Admitting when we make mistakes really is liberating if we let it be.
Choose – Are you going to promote peace or create chaos, help harmonize, or enable entropy? Its up to each of us.
There’s so much darkness in the world. We can choose to be a light in that darkness – a “shining beacon in space ,all alone in the night” Oh wait, that’s Babylon 5…..But you get the idea. I just want to really try to reflect that light – inside me and around me. I’m creating a Light Reflections category on the blog. I hope it’ll be visited and commented on often. Lets be a “light in dark places”, together, “when all other lights go out” (LOTR moment) Join me on the journey. I’ll put on the coffee….. See ya!
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